A division or contrast between two things which are represented as being entirely different. I guess that’s the way I feel right now. On the one hand, I’m entirely excited at the very real prospect of receiving the grades for my Baby Bar exam TOMORROW. I can hardly wait! I don’t know exactly what the result will be, but I’m content to lay it in the Lord’s hands and not worry. After two week-long seminars, and three weeks of 14 hours-per-day consecutive cramming sessions with a couple of my classmates, I AM READY to be done with this!!!
On the other hand, I am blogging from the ICU waiting room of the Kingwood hospital. My grandmother on my Dad’s side has been steadily decreasing in health over the last few years with Parkinson’s disease. Recently she develop some other complications (such as pneumonia) which have moved her in and out of the hospital for the last few months. She’s back in now, and in very poor condition. She was placed on a ventilator to assist with breathing 8 days ago, and since her living will said she did not want to live on life support, the doctors are preparing to remove it today. Hard as it is to say, they do not expect her to be able to continue without it. I would be grateful for your prayers particularly for my Grandpa, because he is taking all of this fairly hard. Grandma has been a firm believer in Jesus Christ for many years and her life reflected it, but this doesn’t make it any easier for him.
Thus I find myself between two contrasts, one which would be considered happy in the eyes of the world, and one, losing a loved one, which would be considered sad.
However, this is in the eyes of the WORLD. As I sit here and contemplate, I can’t help but wonder if it could almost be the other way around. From a Christian’s perspective there is no greater joy than to enter the presence of the Lord our God. It is the great hope for which true Christians are able to look forward to at the end of our physical lives. Grandma’s passing could actually be the joyful end of the dichotomy. For me, it is a reminder of the joyful news of the gospel of Christ, the amazing true hope which we can have through His blood, and temporary character of all earthly possessions and credentials.